The title of this blog says it all. I am quite terrible at this, way more than I thought... So here's to catching up on the craziness of life, but how God has brought me to a place of peace and growth.
I transferred into Malone on January 9th, a lovely Wednesday that had stressed me out a bit but it all worked out really great! My mom was a huge help in unpacking my room and putting it together! So thankful that she can help me to keep my head together in stressful situations. Classes started the next day and I've gone through a whole week of them and by this past weekend I thought my brain was going to turn into ashes with all the information overload that had fried it up. But I really am enjoying my classes and the professors who are really about Christ's kingdom first and about personal growth in my relationship with God. I could go on and on and be completely nerdy about my classes, but I will spare everyone and bring it up another time.
I knew that Malone was where I needed to be, but I did not realize how difficult it would be moving in and joining everything halfway through the school year. Everyone around me seems to have relationships established and their friend groups... then there is me who is like, "Hey! I'm the new kid!" But last Wednesday and Thursday nights, I knew for sure this was where I was supposed to be here. I had gotten to know more girls on my floor, even tutored a few in Algebra, and got to get on a deeper level with a few. It was great gaining these relationships that I wasn't expecting to happen after a week. But God is faithful to his people, He loves us and wants our happiness, and I wanted relationships with others to help with my transition and happiness here. Our God provides in all circumstances.
I am exhausted but I wanted to get something off my mind. Something that I am going to need help working on as I go through the year. DISCIPLINE. Discipline in getting into the word, praying about something as much as I've talked about it, journaling on a daily basis about what I've read or what's on my mind in prayer, or blogging, and even discipline in exercise. It is going to be a rough ride because this is something I fail at. I wish I was more disciplined in many areas of my life, but I'm not. But so far having a reading plan for the bible has helped with reading and journaling, but don't let me fool you, I have skipped a few days and have had to catch up on them. I'm looking for people to hold me accountable, encourage me, and even pray for me as I embark a new journey here at Malone and practicing more discipline in my life.
I am sorry for any of those who read this and could tell that I was tired, because I am. But I'm going to go to bed tonight resting in God's love and peace, knowing that He has a plan and is bigger than all the fears that start to cripple my mind and faith. I am thankful for a faithful God when I am not all together and when I fail at being faithful to Him.
